Are you God fearing or God loving? Do you know the difference? The litmus paper test is whether you love yourself or hate yourself? If you love yourself you will believe in God in a logical way. If you fear God and do things just to please him, it implies that you are trying to bargain something from him and you do not actually understand yourself and God. And do not love yourself, as you don’t understand…
And since you do not understand you will live in fear.